Shared Parts Party Hour!

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April is Organ Donation Awareness Month, and in the spirit of giving, my friend Kate Griggs and I are starting an annual gathering at The Bean in Millennium Park. Our goal is to get as many organ donors and recipients in one place at the same time. Next year we will shoot to set a world record! To set a world record next year we will need at least 250 donors to show up at the same time.  Anybody who supports organ donation is welcome!

We believe organ donation should be cost-neutral, meaning you should never have to decide or not decide to donate based on your financial needs. To support this belief, we are asking for donations to gift to The American Living Organ Donor Fund (ALODF). ALODF is a nonprofit dedicated to fully supporting the American living organ donor to achieve their goal of saving another person’s life. They improve the experience of living organ donors and their loved ones by supporting them through the organ donation journey, through their network of donor patient Navigators who support their lives personally and financially. In 3 years, this group has helped with over 100 transplants.

RSVP or donate at the Shared Parts Party Hour Page!

The Time Commitment

One of the purposes of this blog is to document the timeline of a kidney donation experience so people considering organ donation have an idea of the time and resources required to get through the experience.  Obviously this will vary from person to person and center to center.  Through my journey I have gotten to know several other kidney and liver donors, and none of us had the same exact experience.  You can check out the detailed blow by blow of my experience on the This is Timed page of the blog.

Broken down, getting approved to donate and being matched was a minimal time commitment (36 hours) stretched over 8 months.  After surgery I was pretty useless for 2 weeks.  The third week I  didn’t feel great, but could work 1/2 days at work.  I had one extremely rough day during week 3 where the pain peaked, and spent one night back at the hospital.  Week 4-6, I felt great other than needing a little extra sleep.  By week 7-8 I felt completely back to my old self, and my vitality had completely returned.  It was a major focus of my life and energy for 10 months from the time I decided to do it, till the time the donation was over, and I felt back to my old self.  Not bad!  This week I am 11 weeks out from surgery, and feel awesome.  I think I actually feel better than I did before the donation!

If you are trying to figure out how this timetable will translate into your donation experience, it’s a great idea to talk to multiple donors.  Don’t make the mistake that I did and assume that your recovery will be on the short end of the spectrum, because you are superwoman.  That sets you up for disappointment if you don’t hit the benchmarks in your head.  Figure out what you need to do to be patient with your body during recovery, and just give your body what it needs when it needs it!  Walk as much as you can and water the bean all day.  Plan for a long and slow recovery, and then be pleasantly surprised if it goes a little faster than expected!

Please contact me if you would like to be connected with other kidney or liver donors to see how their donation timeline compared to mine.  There are tons of donors out there who would love to talk to you, including me!  If you are a kidney or liver donor, I would love it if you would comment about your donation experience so that our readers can see what the experience is like for multiple donors.  If you are open to being contacted, feel free to post your contact information as well.  Thanks in advance!






1 Month Later…..

screen-shot-2016-12-27-at-11-16-57-amThis  past Thursday marked the 1 month anniversary of my kidney donation.  I would say I am at 87%, my only complaint is that I get tired easily.  If I could sleep 10 hours a night, I would!  In terms of side effects, this one really isn’t so bad, as I have an awesome bed, and am gifted when it comes to the art of sleeping.  The hardest part of my recovery was the emotional toll that it took.  I felt weepy and emotional, and not like my normal, positive self.  I am thrilled to say that today I feel like my old self again!  I had a follow-up email from NM on my 1 month anniversary letting me know 3things:

  1.  My recipient doesn’t want to connect with me yet, and respectfully requested we not check back in for awhile
  2. My recipient and their new kidney are doing very well!
  3. The chain is so far 3 transplants long, and still going.  This means at minimum, the chain will result in 4 transplants.

I would really love the opportunity to connect with my recipient, however this can only happen if the recipient chooses for it to happen.  They know I am eager to connect, and the ball is in their court.  For me, it would be rewarding and exciting to meet, and it would give me closure.  Most people who donate an organ know the recipient.  I imagine the recovery process is different for these people- the reward of the donation is right there in front of them.  They can see the life they impacted.  In many cases they can watch somebody they love dramatically change from being sick to being healthy.  It’s a nice reward on the tough recovery days!  In my case, I don’t get to see that.  Sometimes it feels like I didn’t actually donate a kidney.  During my recovery, I thought about it a lot, and took it personally.  It’s not so much disappointing me today- if we do get to meet, I see it as a bonus, but I am not counting on it happening.  I am at peace with that.  I respect the recipient’s privacy even if I don’t understand it.  Confirmation from NM that the recipient is healthy, and knowing that the chain is still going makes me happy, and makes me feel good about donating.

An online friend, Diane Brockington, posted this, and while it took a few weeks to resonate, I think she’s right:

“Your reward isn’t delayed-it’s there every time you open your eyes in the morning, close them at night. The gift you gave was the decision to donate. After that, so many factors come into it that are completely out of your hands that you have to focus on the gift. Undiminished by the presence of a thank you. You did it. You gave. Rest in that.”

I had a particularly nice Christmas this year- I spent it with my Dickinson family and we had some really nice quality time together.  It was at my house, but my mom did all the work, including making sure we all matched (THANKS MOM)!  I am so grateful for all of these guys.  They have been so loving and patient with me.  Donating a kidney is #thebestideaever, but wow, you can’t do it without a support system.  I didn’t fully understand how much my decision to donate would effect those around me.  I am glad they were up for it 🙂






The Truth About Online Girlfriends

This post is about the importance of finding at least 1 new friend with whom you can share your transplant journey.  It wasn’t something that I understood was important until I accidentally found myself with 2 online girlfriends- Kate Griggs and Rebecca O’Marrah.  We met online and will all have donated an organ (Kate and I kidneys, and Rebecca her liver) inside a 10 week period this year.  Kate’s donation was 9/29, mine was 11/22, and Rebecca’s is…….TOMORROW!  This is Kate on the left, and Rebecca and her family on the right (she is on the far left).

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In my experience, the best place to find your online girlfriend is the ALODF Donor Support Group on Facebook and the Living Kidney Donor’s Page.  Both are closed Facebook groups for living donors only, and is a great place to talk freely about whatever is on your mind related to being a living donor whether you are thinking about doing it, in the process of doing it, or already did it.  It’s a great resource, and I haven’t found anything out there like it yet in terms of connecting with other living donors.  You are bound to find someone else who is in a similar place on their transplant journey as you are.  Get their phone number- these friends are different than your other friends and will be an invaluable part of your journey!

In the spirit of celebrating new friendships, I would like to give the hugest shout out in the world to Rebecca O’Marrah.  She is donating half of her liver TOMORROW to Kelley Drey, her friend from high school.  She knew her original surgery date before I knew mine, so I figured I would be the last in our trio to get to donate.  Then I got a call from NM that they found a match for my kidney, and I ended up beating her to the OR!  Since then, her surgery date has been changed twice!  It’s been a twisty turney road, and I haven’t heard her once complain about it. EVER.  She is in Chicago from out of state with her husband and kids, and will be here at least 2 weeks post surgery before she can go home.  It’s a pretty major commitment, and she is doing it without the comfort of her own home.  Her recovery will be a lot different than mine and Kate’s.  It’s a longer more complicated surgery, and the recovery is not as fast (I hear it flat out sucks).  She is a brave woman, and I couldn’t be more proud of what she is doing, and how she is doing it.  The world would be a better place if we had more Rebeccas!

Kate and Rebecca- I am so glad that our paths have crossed.  I value our friendships and have learned so much from both of you in the past few months.  I love the excitement, passion, and energy you have for donating your parts.  I admire your willingness to be vulnerable, and risk emotional exposure (you have been models for me here).  I admire your deep sense of compassion for others.  You are very special humans, and I am proud to be your friend.  It warms my heart that it’s only just begun, we have so many milestones to celebrate still!

Best of luck tomorrow Rebecca!  You will do great!  We are so incredibly proud of you!


12/20/16:  Update on Rebecca, she and her recipient Kelly are both thriving, and she is on a plane home today to finish up her recovery!  Fun fact about liver donors- it takes about 3,000 extra calories a day to regenerate your liver.  Rebecca has strict instructions to have as many milkshakes as possible for at least 2 months to unsure she is getting enough calories to regenerate her liver which miraculously is designed to grow back to it’s normal size in 6 months.  Kidney donors don’t get to do that, so I guess this is added reward for the liver donors, as their surgeries are harder to bounce back from.


Bah Humbug

Today marks 8 days into a smooth recovery!

The surgery went perfectly, Dr Ladner took about 2 hours to complete the surgery, and the kidney I am told, is a pretty one!  We know that the kidney was successfully transplanted into somebody in Houston, and that they are thriving today.  The recipient’s donor (who was not a match but able to donate), had their kidney shipped to CA for the second transplant in the chain.  The third transplant should be taking place this week sometime.  At this point in time, I know that my donation resulted in a minimum of 3 lifesaving transplants, but the chain has not ended yet, so it could be more.  I feel great about this and am relieved to know that my kidney is doing well in it’s new home.

My hospital stay was 24 hours, and the care there was fantastic.  I am a big fan of IV pain meds!  I broke a record by being the first person to walk a lap before being checked into my hospital room.  The morning after the surgery, I was able to walk a mile easily.  My stay at the hospital is blurry, but showered with lots of visits and warm wishes from friends and family.  Thanks to all who visited and called!  I wasn’t in any major pain the whole time I was there.

Here is a picture of my incisions.  The small 2 are for inserting laparoscopic instruments to cut the kidney free, and the big one is where they pulled the kidney out of my body.  The

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black is my pant line- the whole area is puffy because they fill your torso with air to extract the kidney.  The muscles are stitched together, but the incisions are glued, and this is pretty much what it has looked like since day 1.  The pain is what you would expect, and easily managed with pain meds.

So 8 days in, I am pretty much sleeping 10-15 hours a day.  It seems to be what my body needs, so I am going with it.  My pain is manageable and gets better daily.  I knew I was being optimistic in planning to be working from home this week, but am surprised and disappointed that my energy level is as low as it is.  There  is no way I could be working from home yet, I am too tired and not fully with it.

The biggest change is how I feel emotionally.  I just feel Bah Humbugish, irritable, and not my positive self.  I’m not regretful or unhappy, just not myself.  I suspect this has to do with the drugs and look forward to feeling myself soon.

I am thrilled that the recipient is thriving, and although they “are not ready to connect with me at this time,” I look forward to feeling more clear headed and refocusing on the amazing outcome that they are having, and digesting the beauty and happiness that lies there.  I am not really digesting all of that yet, and think that will be the next phase in this journey!


In the meantime, I am home!  I have a great support system, who I am really grateful for, and these loyal companions!

Thanks for reading,






The Empty Spot


Some say your body mourns the loss of an organ. Is this real or is it just a way to describe all the emotions you feel after saving a life by donating your kidney? Who knows? 5.5 years ago when I donated my kidney to give my Dad another lease on life.  This post will share my thoughts on this question. Fun fact: I know Laurie because she was on the floor visiting her Dad when I donated my kidney. Our families met walking the halls.

Background: In March of 2011, I was a freshman and over spring break donated my kidney. The whole process was something that words cannot describe. Having the opportunity to donate a kidney, be out of the hospital the next day and I back to college about a week and a half later is really a testament to the amazing abilities of our body. I will spare you the details but nothing went as planned during the testing process from getting told I was a matched in November to on Dec 23rd getting told my Dad’s blood type had changed slightly and they need to cancel the transplant (for Dec 26th) to finally getting to donate on March 3rd.


While the recipient comes into the surgery not feeling well and wakes up feeling better instantly. In my Dad’s case free from letting a machine keep you alive, the body gets the boost of a working kidney, something no drug can replicate.  On the other side, the donor goes into the procedure with excellent health and wakes up in pain. In talking with a few other people who have donated their kidney’s they share my feelings. There is nothing you can do to prepare your body for the shock of signing the consent paper, being put out then waking up (after a great nap) wanting to sit up but realizing you are in too much pain to sit up. Good news for those of you considering donating…lately it seems like donors are having less pain upon waking up.

Back to the feeling that something was missing… While the hospital did their one-week check-up and said come back in 6 months, the processing of the what had happened mentally was just beginning. Back at school it was finally starting to sink in, what I had been working on doing for almost a year had happened, you can’t repeat it and you can only pray that your father does not reject your kidney.

One of my favorite questions they asked me prior to donating was, “how would I feel if my Dad’s body rejected my kidney?” I answered that I understood there was always a chance and had to accept it. That question though really symbolizes something bigger, the giving up of part of yourself to give another person, in my case my Dad, in Laurie’s case a stranger, a chance to live a “closer to normal life” whether that kidney works for a day, year or 15 years. The donor was able to give them a priceless gift, the ability to live life normally.


At some point he will need another kidney and I will have to make peace with the fact I can’t save him again, wishing my kidney had lasted longer but joy for the new lease on life he has had for the last 5.5 years plus+.  It is really symbolic of how it takes a community not just one person to save another’s life. I believe that God gave me 2 kidney’s for a reason one to keep and one to nurture, grow, love, and then to give-away all in God’s time. Giving life to the person who gave me life, nothing more beautiful than that…I told the team at Northwestern that I wanted to give it away to a stranger if I was not a match for my Dad.

To this day, 5.5 years later I still think I can at times feel the empty spot where my kidney was. Having the kidney in our immediate family still every time I hug my Dad I am hugging part of myself. Whether the feeling of emptiness I feel where the kidney used to be is my brain playing with me or an actual feeling I do not know but I do not think it matters because it is as symbolic as anything. For me, that empty feeling is a reminder of struggle others go through on a daily basis because of health issues, it is also a reminder of why I work in the social sector working towards equity. I am extremely blessed to be given this healthy life and want to do all I can to leave the world a better place.

I was blessed to have countless family and friends offering any support but in particular Jessica, a fellow kidney donor reached out. Jessica had donated her kidney only weeks before I did to her brother and we were both in school.  Jessica has no idea how thankful I was to have someone who had also been through the process and I am forever thankful.

As for donating a kidney… would I do it again? Absolutely! (I would donate my other kidney but that would present slight problems for continuing to live). If you have seen the move 7 pounds I can relate to Will Smith who plays the main character in the movie I feel like him wanting to give both kidneys away at times. Would I encourage you to do it? YES! If you ever need to talk to anyone please reach out to me.

The KID in Kidney


Laurie is one of my closest friends on this Earth. We have shared a lot of everything. We are always there for each other. Sometimes are easier than others, and most of the time our togetherness attracts complete ridiculousness 🙂


Laurie was studying at the University of MT when we met. I was working at a ranch store living a very carefree hippy life. Our friendship grew along with us. When she moved to Costa Rica it was hard (even now I cried after I wrote that) BUT our friendship grew even stronger! I became pregnant. From afar she was one of my strongest supports. She got married. I had another kid.

Our lives and friendship growing year after year. We live very different lives now. Very much city mouse & country mountain mouse. Neither where we thought we would be 11 years ago. She has given me so much encouragement to be a mom. She lifts up all her mom friends, admiring us all for different reasons. Especially on the days I’m not sure I know what I’m doing. She is there to help me through it. It’s always made me wonder… Is Laurie going to be a mom ever? She is to animals. Although, that is not the same. I promise you it’s not. For 10 years I thought that, & then 1st hand found out it’s not. However, the bond with animals is for life and is its own thing of love. Laurie loves that thing & is really good at it. I’m sure there are people out there that want Laurie to know what it’s like to have child. To give & nurture human life. They may even see her as missing the boat of parenthood by doing the ‘kidney thing’. I think it’s important to REALLY see that there is more than 1 way to give life- and even though she is choosing an nontraditional way of doing that, we can still meet her where she is and relate to her with our experiences giving life as parents.


When Laurie told me about her kidney donation my stomach dropped instantly to the ground. In that same instance Laurie was now answering all my questions. I knew why- that was never really needed. I know how Dan changed her focus on organ donors. My questions were what are your risks to your body type things. She answered every one. By the end of the conversation I felt such admiration and pride for someone I love.

beth-picThis past spring Laurie held my hands & my family as we said good-bye to my mom. I’m so happy that she is helping someone have a longer life and not have their loved ones feel that sort of pain. She is doing this for a complete stranger. She has chosen this to be the life she gives and what a beautiful thing that is!

She has given my son- whom she is “mothergod” to- & daughter such a wonderful story to learn by.  She has helped spread knowledge on living donors.  She is helping save lives.  So glad to call this true lover of life my friend. Wishing all positive love to Laurie on this amazing part of her journey.